When i look back at my life and i realize how many things i have stopped doing ..how many people i stopped seeing.. How many identities i have let go .. every time i recreate myself over and over.. Yet the black fog never leaves my brain..
It just clicked in my head now and i realized it’s only a chain reaction…
I am not easily bored.. I am just not interested.
I am not (Not interested) .. i am unmotivated
I am not (not motivated… I am un-inspird
I am not (Not Inspired) … I am not meeting interesting people anymore
I am not (meeting interested people any more)…. Because i am fed up with the ones i already know or the ones who are not interesting .
Once i am fed up … i never tell why i am fed up .. so i tend to change my end of the line..
I change habits…
Change scenes…
Change cities…
Change seats…
Change diet…
Change ideas…
Change values…
Thinking … well .. i am re-creating myself again and will feel better again soon.. And i do..
But only for very little time ..then i am easily bored again!
If i manage to say Goodbye to those who clutter my mind… and hear it back.. Knowing that paths will never cross.. And if they cross we shall ignore them.. I think .. i may save myself the trouble this chain of re-creating myself all over again would do.. until i no longer recognize myself…
Maybe .. i won’t feel bored … Again!